***BeTTeR oFF aNYWaYs***

Sometimes you have to look back and wonder would I be better off anyways? Well as I am working night shift tonight at the hospital I have so much time to think! I am way better off without someone ("S") making up excuses and what seems to be excuse on top of excuse. Please, if you are going to read my blog, please take my advise and don't email me your excuses anymore. I hate excuses.

I have some great support groups I go through and I probably will cancel one because this person is in it. I have remained professional and will not disclose who this person is because my blog is strictly for me, to right and get things off my chest. All my blog readers need to know is that I was pretty much screwed over at last minute and yes, a meeting WAS scheduled. I am tired of it.

I have talked and emailed a few wonderful people and plan to pick someone by the end of January or February (hopefully)! I am super excited! I dont know what I would do without my family there to tell me that everything will be ok, and my possible other future surro mommies that it will be ok. These women are compassionate.

Down to the nitty gritty. I am going to cook up some really good Thanksgiving munchies! I cannot wait!

So, I went out in the woods today. I woke up at 4am, thinking that I was going to get some sleep after hunting. Well Bob got him a button buck. So we processed it totally. We were to go to dinner with bobby's nephew. Well it is now 2:15am, and I work til 7am.

YUCK IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY! lol
lets hope I survive.

To all my friends, family, and others, HAPPY TURKEY DAY!

WOWZERS! KITTIES GALORE!

Finally a fun blog... I love babies of all sorts. Guess what? We have new little kittens. 3 days old. Even though one we found passed away, she looked a little deformed, so it might have been better for her. There are 5 boys! 2 black, 2 gray and white tabby, and 1 brown/black tabby. 1 female white and black. she has spots. I think I will call her moo. lol. This is my mother in laws cat. I am going to get her fixed, keep one of the gray kitties. I need a really cool name. I love astrology names and greek names. Give me some.. I am thinking "Leo"...so cute. Anywho...

ON SURROGACY NEWS>
I want to meet up with a couple people and discuss some insurance plans and such. I have called around to Llyods of London to check on those. I have found a few women I am interviewing. Hopefully we will be well and ready to start in March or so! WHAT AN AWESOME birthday present that would be...

Kel

Meeting Schmeeting. Whatever. :-(

You know...This "meeting" with "S" Did not happen. I am really upset that someone would act unprofessional. Especially when they are getting paid as much as they are. You can say I am a little bitter. I think I have a right to be when someone cancels on you 2 hours before you are supposed to leave on a 4 hour trip... All meetings were cancelled for the day and I made time for this woman in my busy schedule and look what happens.

I dont know whether I should be understanding or not. I scheduled with her, and made sure NOTHING was planned for her A MONTH AGO. I told her if there was anything getting in the way, we would go for another weekend. Now I am pretty much booked with insurance quotes, my medical job, my modeling job, and family photography that needs to be done...

So there will be no meetings unless it is local or within an hour or two away now. Fun Times.

So here is the reason. This womans daughters birthday party got scheduled for Saturday (yesterday), no big deal. We were going to work around it. I love kids. BUT I get an email, 2 hours before I am to leave stating that she (her daughter) wanted to go to the movies with her grandpa which I guess never gets time around her birthday to hang out... The movies? Thats why you cancel a multi-thousand dollar deal? Why not let him take her to the movies and you keep the promise you made me? Oh I guess I dont matter? I dont know...

Sorry for ranting.

Posted above is the cutest picture ever of Chloe and her nephew "Max". I think they were watching Family Guy. hahah

Thank you all for your sincerity. It means a lot to me. Also, If you know someone that might work for me, let me know... I want to stay on the lower side of the pay scale. I have someone from Muncie, IN I am talking with and seeing if we can weasel something out there. She seems like she is a genuine great down to earth person!

Wish me luck! Now taking applications... lol

Love,
Kel

~~~!!!SuPeR DuPeR ExCiTeD!!!!~~~

OK. So I get to go meet "S" tonight! I stay the night there since it is a 4 hour drive. I am as I said above "super duper" excited. I can not wait to be a little bit more educated on surrogacy.

In the "dream world" it has been interesting. The other night I dreamt that I had interviewed 3 surrogate moms. I implanted them all with embryos and myself as well (which I would not do because of health problems). One of the surrogates got preggo with twin boys, One got preggos with twin girls, I had a boy and the other had a girl. So here I was stuck with 6 babies all within weeks of each other. My, my, my... what a dream...

It seems when I get a rool on things, I am on the train for real.

Another note... I have started (finally) going through some old pictures of Grandma and Grandpa and realizing the holidays are coming up and I am getting a little depressed. I miss them terribly and dont think the holidays are going to get any better. Any suggestions? I have been thinking about them a lot now. My dad is getting super depressed which is weird. I dont really know the right way to comfort him. We are just now getting closer after the big breakdown of me telling him that he cant live off other people for the rest of his life.

He is doing better and I am proud of him, but he has not made the milestone of him growing up just yet.

My cat is getting ready to go to the pooper or something. She will not get nice. Any suggestions on her? To at least calm her down? She is a spaz and must be bipolar. One minute she is purring and the next she is biting and clawing. I mean drawing blood! I cant live with it anymore.. My arms are horrible!

Loves! Thanks for keeping up and comment~!~!

A Great Aunt? Wow...

So guys I am a great aunt before I am a mom... Depressing. So Jasmine is my NEW great niece and Jayden is my great nephew...So here I am relaxing, or at least trying to because my husband is blaring the TV and I have a partial migrane. Yucko.
ll leave you with a new picture of Lil Jazzy and Jay....

HUGS!

Kel

Lordy, Lordy...

It is almost Christmas! I have some people looking at my Grandmas house and hopefully we will get a wild hair up our butts to get motivated again to start working on the Blue Rock house. We need to sell these houses ASAP! I am soooo motivated to fine my right surro-mommy. I am meeting S on Nove 14th. I have met so many wonderful people and have found out more about my genetic problems! Now I know I should not have even been trying to get ol preggo! I am not sure who reads this, or who cares but it helps to jot down everything to get it outta my brain. Once I get something on my brain I am so GUNGHO about it! Hahaha.

But anywho, who is ready for Christmas and Thanksgiving? I AM!

*HUGS*
Kel